The sky will be a bit brighter tonight
Mom's star will be joining the constellations this evening. She passed away this morning at 5:15 or so. She went peacefully and though a storm kept me from being by her side, I know she would not have wished for me to witness that. She no longer exists in the physical realm, but Nora Roberts, her unconditionally loving heart, her many quirks, and her wonderful personality will live on in the memories of her friends and family.
Who I am, how I live my life, how I treat others...it is all a product of a woman who stared her adversities down and sacrificed without hesitation to ensure that I had what I needed, what I wanted, but most importantly she loved me unconditionally and was an amazing friend in addition to being an angel of a mother.
Funeral details will be worked out in the next couple days and I will most definitely be posting in the near future.
If you are reading this, you are most likely wondering how I am. I am content in knowing that mom's suffering has ceased and that her anxiety, pain, and confusion have ended. I'd like to think that she is warm with the love of those she is joining in Heaven and all of the thoughts and love being sent to her by those she left behind far too soon on Earth. I feel an inexplicable loss in my life and the hole in my heart is too much to comprehend right now. Mom raised me with strength and grace and that is how I will attempt to deal with her loss. She wouldn't want it any other way.
I love you mom. I told you I would be fine and not to worry about me. I am not fine, but as days melt into weeks, weeks become years, I will get closer to fine. My life is lonelier without her in it, but I am surrounded with the love of my friends and family and I consider myself a very lucky man. Lucky for the last 35 years of receiving the strongest love and support that a mom could ever give to a child. Lucky for the next who knows how many years of life surrounded by the love and support that I feel this very minute from those who share my life with me.
To paraphrase a song I have been obsessively listening to the past month,
"Though you are gone, believe me, your memory will carry on."
pat
posted by p-rob @ 2:26 PM
3 Comments:
Pat
My heart goes out to you during this awful time. I am so glad that you have the love and support of your wonderful wife, Jenny, your family and friends to help you get through this. Bill and I have been praying for you to give you stength. You are so blessed to have had such a wonderful woman to whom you called mom. I'm sure she's up in heaven right now looking down on you and letting you know that she is completely pain free and in a much better place. Erin, Bill and Abby
Pat:
I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom. You brought her alive to many of us who never had the joy to know such a brave woman. I would've liked to have met her, as anyone who can take whatever punches life packs & still remain standing in the end, is a hero.
Rest secure in knowing how much your mom loved you, and that she will never be completely gone, but will reside forever in your heart.
Life is a precious gift, and it sounds like your mom appreciated it for what it was, and has impacted many people's lives.
Take care of yourself.
Katie
Pat
My heart goes to you as I feel your loss. Your brought your Mom into
my life and taught me many things throughout this journey. It will take time to heal but your mother made you a wonderful man and you should be proud of yourself as I know she is . She will always watch over you.
Love always
V and P
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